Why did not u try to help yourself out?

I am trying to help myself out! But I did not try hard enough. I wasted my life and my time on small things and try to make myself feel comfortable and told myself that's life -- you enjoy it, you waste it. Before you find you are in trouble, you don't know how hard you should try and how hard is enough.

I will try harder. And in half a month, next time you back, you will see. I will show you that I am trying, trying hard, my best. I will help myself out. What's more I will help you out.

I did not help myself out. But I will help myself out!